Lost in Transition

I don't know where to start, i remember talking to Sharyl when she dropped me off after our outing in Gurney plaza about how sometimes i feel so lost being in Australia not knowing where is home any more, or if this is still the right choice. Seems like nothing is going right at the moment. then again there is a possibility that im just being hormonal and slightly home sick.

current situation:

-university is hard and i have no idea what the hell they are talking about in biochem and biometrics

-i have to travel all the way to gatton (which is a solid hour away by driving) to do my classes on mondays and fridays

-i need to find a new place and get my ass and stuff there in three weeks

-i need to get a job soon and save to get a car because my entire semester is in gatton next year and i cant afford to live in gatton as its taking a huge toll on my mental health.

-i need MONEY MONEY MONEY and i cant stomach the fact that i need to ask more money from my dad.

-feeling so lonely with no real friends around to hang out with or just be myself, no one to call on friday nights just to talk to, or rant on.


and adding to all that i don't even know if this is the right way i should be following anymore, sometimes it feels like this is what im meant to do but at the same time sometimes i feel so lost. i never knew how much i would miss you freaks or my family until i left. away from the comfort zone makes u realize a lot.

or maybe..IM JUST HORMONAL..with no one to talk to.

so confused, and not happy!

Back in Aussie

Hey guys! i got back to gold coast and we went to Minyon falls national park for a two days camp. That place was filled with leeches that was very damn freekin scary! we went for a swim in the tea tree lake and it was like zero degree celcius (no it wasnt frozen lol) Got back about last night and i was so tired cause we hardly got any sleep. but i think i gained a coupla kilos cause we were eating for the entire two days!
I miss you guys heaps and bundles and a bakers dozen! uni starts on monday and its gonna be a whole new experince cause this year its gonna be in a whole new campus so im a little nervous. Eamons parents are here and they are having a BBQ for Eamons birthday and late xmas reunion. so more food and drinking (aussie culture, lotsa drinking lol as ive told you before)
market day is on the 20th of feb and im looking forward to join a coupla new clubs and meet more new people cause its a whole new campus..scary!!
thats it for now and i finally have a blog!!! yay

xoxo